don't know why suddenly feel like typing this.
i don't know why i suddenly feel this way.
feeling that i'm alone.
feeling so cold.
feeling that nobody cares.
feeling so helpless.
feeling so extra.
feeling i'm detest by everyone.
feeling so down.
feeling so lost.
feeling of dropping tears in anytime.
feeling of scary-ness.
feeling of quiting school.
feeling of no peace and safe-ness.
i trying my very best to do everything i can to stand up.
but nothing seems to be helping.
always trying to talk to myself.encouraging myself,telling myself i can stand up.
but..
i feel like leaving.
i feel like avoiding.
as sometimes i said.
shutting my mouth up,maybe the better way to solve and avoid some problems(:
i miss wahida's,sam's,shimin's,tw's,houzi's,jarpry's hugs alot.
maybe you guys will think; cheys,only hug one time,how much feeling can it be.
my replies will be; although maybe it's only one time,but the feeling of warmth,care and concern is alot more than you can imagine.
thanks for you guys always be there for me. i know you guys have been always giving me shoulders. cracking your brain just to give me some advice. thanks. i appreciate it alots.i love you guys.
but i do not want my luck to get into you guys. as i know that my luck is not very good. i have never regret to know you guys as my best-mate.
andrea;peilinn(:
"to me, you're always Perfect ."
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