my staff meal.
my two good good gfs always for me all the time.
my two good good gfs always for me all the time.
ohs.!~
finally get to post.
so tired for this week as i on work work work.
keep on full shift full shift.
1030 to 1030.
just to make myself occupied with things to do.
also got money earn lars. of course.
nothing much to say at this moment.
as at this point of time, i just feel.
whatthef.
please, stop.
stabbing through,it's hard for me to accept and take the pain.
don't push the knife further in.
maybe everything will be ending after a trading.
yars, this will make you happy and feeling better, isn't it.
just remember, i'll always be there for you.
goodluck for your driving..
good effort for maybe try not to go club.
maybe i work also good, wont be going there.
what i do that i deserve all this treating from you.?
i'vealwaysbeentryingveryhardtomakeyouhappy.
but what happened in the end.?
i don't want the trading back as i still want to have a connection of friends with you,
as i think that after the trading, we will be totally cut off by a clean line.
get it.?
i don't like the feeling, just like what happened 2 years ago.
fuck lars.
whys did you let my history repeat.?!
i don't get it.!
i didn't make a sound of anything not because i don't mind.!
is just because i love you too much.
love you till i will take all the things and moments you give me as every bits of love.
yes, i hate to be treated like hot and cold,
but i make the effort to think you're tired, you're quiet.
i love the times when we both are close,
let me feel that at least i exist.
i don't like the feeling that when i hear you saying go club.
cause i scared, to hear anything i don't wish to hear.
but i still give you my trust. trying to be understanding that going club is not a crime.
i always wish that you can send me home.
but i try to understand that it's far, it's late.
you still have to work the next day, must rest early.
although my heart sometimes drowns, but i still believe, tml will be better.
but i'm a lying to myself.?
till now, every moment, i still tell myself.
it's not a lie, it's a white lie.
till now, this moment, i still telling myself, the three golden words.
another three golden words is, dui bu qi (sorry).
"to me, you're always Perfect ."
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